Everytime I Feel Hungry I will Taste the Food from my Thighs

    I don't know why I can't keep up with a fast. I just keep having one meal daily these days. Is a meal a day fine? I wish I had more self control, more strength.

Today I went to the mall to buy a pair of cute leather boots. It costed $130, I've never spent so much money on shoes before. Well this is major motivation for me, I can't wait for my legs to become long and slender. They would finally look good with those cute boots.

    Everytime I feel hungry, I'll just have to stare at my fat thighs. Thats where I will find food!

    I want hip bones, I want my ribs to show even when I'm not sucking in or arching my back. I want sharp shoulders, elbows and knees, I want there to be a huge gap between my thighs when I'm standing up with my feet together, I want my cheekbones to pop.

    I'm not going to just keep dreaming about this. I will turn this into a reality.
Today I had to eat my one meal because we ordered chinese and had to eat together as a family. There was so much pressure.
I can't bear to think of what the holidays will bring. I must not gain anymore!!!

Welcome to our community, Nate!

How are you all doing?
Stay strong,
xoxo Ryssa

Never Give In

Today was my best friend's birthday. I did sit ups this morning and shoveled snow, so that counts as working out. I also walked Cuddly, our puppy, and took a big route. Then when I was at the party, I didn't feel as guilty when I ate only a few chips, diet coke, and had cake. It was the hardest thing ever. I just wanted to puke, but I know I can't anymore. Well I did indeed eat the cake, slowly. And afterwards I said no to the beer and we had a good time.
I hope I won't binge when the holidays come. I need motivation, and I have it. (:
Sometimes I feel so alone, and I'm sure you do too.. When we can't tell anybody around us in real life, not even our family or best friends, not even our soulmates... On here, its like an escape, a getaway where all your secrets can be safe. <3 I'm so thankful for all your comments and support, it really means everything to me.
 I can't wait to be perfect. Don't give up, I know all you girls can do it. <3
Wishing you the best, xoxo - Ryssa